Jang Jaswal

The Biography of Jang Jaswal in his own words:

 

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Our senses are imperfect; our brain interprets partial and incomplete data, hence our thinking and our minds are skewed. If we can not perceive things, it does not mean that do not exist. Our imagination goes as far as our mind goes and our mind is limited and dependent on our senses, hence our imaginations are limited too. If we can not see other frequencies of energy, like UV or infrared light or sound waves, it does not mean they are non-existent. Dogs can sniff drugs, bats can sense in dark, snakes can pick up very small vibration in earth, and fish can sense slight movements at distances. Human perception is very limited. We have invented some tools to compensate for the deficiencies but they are nowhere near giving us a whole picture of this universe.

Our language is limited and unable to express everything would like. We do not have, at least I do not have, enough vocabulary to express some of the things or situations or feelings I would like to express. For centuries, philosophers have tried to express experiences like love, but no word justifies the feeling of love. One must experience it to realize what it is. Try explaining the difference between red and blue to a person who is blind since birth? The word INFINITY as we all seem to understand means limitless, or without boundaries. But when I really want to comprehend it, I get lost. First, I cannot imagine anything infinite, and furthermore I do not have the correct words to explain it. So with my limited understanding and vocabulary, I will try my best to explain my NDE.

On 22nd Nov. 2013 I underwent a dual organ transplant, heart and kidney. The surgery lasted for about 12 hours. When I came out of anesthesia next morning, I was very peaceful, calm, and happy, not due to the fact that I survived a major surgery, but due to what I experienced during my surgery. Before going into further details, I want to talk about my life before.  Of East Indian origin, I was born in a traditional Hindu family. My parents were very religious and we used to have prayers and hymns everyday at our home. Hindus are strong believers of life after death; of reincarnation. I had formal education in science (master’s in genetics and biochemistry) which led me to be an independent and analytical thinker. I started questioning all the rituals and beliefs instilled in me during my childhood. So much so that I started questioning the existence of God. The more I tried to logically analyze this, the more my concept about any God or superpower disappeared. Up until my surgery I considered God and related beliefs as myths. I was an antagonist and an atheist.

My cardiac issues started in 1989 when I was 33 years old. I was diagnosed with Atherosclerosis, coronary artery disease, and underwent angioplasty, which was a relatively recent technique in those days. From that time on, I struggled with heart issues, and doctors took all possible measures to keep me alive. I underwent angiograms a dozen times, endured more than 15 stent implants and a triple bypass surgery. I suffered two strokes which left me partially blind. Additionally, my kidneys failed in 2008 and I was put on home (peritoneal) dialysis and later on hemodialysis. In May 2013, my heart was failing and a heart machine called LVAD (left ventrical assist device) was implanted in me to enable normal blood circulation. At this stage I was literally a bionic man, being supported by machines. I was put on heart and kidney transplant lists and within months was on the operating table undergoing a double transplant (Nov 22nd, 2013). During this tenuous period I had some very close calls.

I would like to mention one in particular, when I had an allergic reaction to Cipro, an antibiotic. I fainted within minutes of taking it and was rushed to the emergency department in an ambulance. Though I was unconscious, I could hear EMT technicians informing the trauma physician over the radio about my dropping blood pressure and non-existent pulse. I was given defibrillator shocks a few times to revive my heart. Though I was unconscious, still I was able to hear the EMTs conversation and I do not attribute it to any out-of-body-experience. Later, however the experience I had during my transplant was totally different and very interesting. When I regained consciousness the day after surgery I was little surprised to find myself on the bed. Sometime during the surgery I felt that I was somewhere else. I realized that I was in some kind of valley with hills all around. There were a few trees, and an old big one with two big branches stood out. There was no noise at all and everything was very quiet. There was shade where I was, like an overhead cloud on a sunny day. I could see some source of light over the horizon through the clouds. There was a crowd of people facing the light at the far end. I could see only the outline of these people as some light was filtering through them. I was observing all this from the southern end of the valley. I was not scared nor was I surprised. It seemed like a place I have known before, more like a home. I did not feel myself there physically, but I could feel my presence, my consciousness there. All the communication was through the mind, telepathic. There was somebody communicating with me, somebody seemingly at higher intellect level than me. Even before I could formulate and ask any thought or question, the answer or explanation would pop up in my mind. Someone greeted me by sarcastically saying, “So finally you are here, you dog”. (In my culture, ‘Dog’ is used for people with lower values.) Upon my discontentment for being called a dog, I was told, “you bark a lot, but still you are very dear to me, you are my favorite dog”. I immediately realized that during my recent lifetime I had been generally communicating my views strongly and was very vocal about the non-existence of God, and my personality must certainly have been considered self-approving by those around me.

Then I felt myself sitting in the someone’s lap. The individual was stroking my hair. A lot of questions were racing through my mind. One of the things I remember clearly is that I was told that we know the answers to all questions. All we need to do to find the answers is by listening to our inner selves. The other thing I was told was, “you think you are the center of universe, and everything revolves around you. Come, open your eyes and have a look”.  I went towards the edge, a gap in the hills surrounding the valley, and saw planet Earth spinning on its axis and moving very fast. It zipped across my eyes. Whole solar systems and many stars and galaxies passed by me. I realized how insignificant I was in the bigger picture of the universe. Soon after I found myself standing alone and slowly the cloud overhead started moving away and light rays started falling on me. Light started moving towards where I was (just like on a overcast day when sun comes out of the clouds). There was a big source of light in seemingly in the north. The most intriguing part of this experience was the light. It was golden white in color, resembling light radiating from molten metal and these rays were not associated with heat unlike sun rays. It was bright and refreshing cold, more like being under a cold shower on a hot day. When light rays fell on me something happened to me. My mind stopped wandering, I had no more curiosities, no more questions, and I came to a total rest and peace. It was such a fulfilling experience which I cannot describe in words. It seemed like I had reached home. There was no more turbulence in my mind, no thoughts, good or bad. While being soaked in that light I felt as if I was melting as I was becoming lighter. Time just stood still and I was enjoying this bliss, I do not know how long I was in that state. It was like time stopped. It could have been a split second or eternity. Later I was informed that during a heart transplant, patients are clinically dead for a short time while their new heart is being put in and started. As I was clinically dead for some time and felt my presence somewhere else, I call it near-death.

Ever since this experience, my life has changed considerably. I have become more understanding and tolerant of others and their beliefs. I do not think poorly of any other people and I am no more a grouchy arrogant man. I love everything and everybody. I give lots of hugs and laugh a lot. Things do not bother me. I am not scared of the unknown or of dying. I know now that nature takes its own course, and questioning it would only cause misery. My family is happy and there is solace in the house. My mind does not wander around. I’m in state of bliss and kind, eternal happiness. In short, I understand myself lot better. I do not claim to have seen God or attained any supernatural powers, but I have learned a lot. I may not have all the answers and explanations as I understand there are some experiences which are better left open ended rather than trying to dissect and make a sense of them. I am at peace with myself and enjoying every moment of my new life. I am having a remarkable recovery without any complications or side effects, and my physicians and family members are really amazed. I do not take any credit for that as I am well aware that it is not me. May love and peace prevail.

I am an insignificant part of this universe, Jang Jaswal.

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